piningpresent participle of pine (Verb)1. Suffer a mental and physical decline, esp. because of a broken heart.
2. Miss and long for the return of.
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Well, I don't have a broken heart, but lately I have been "pining." The part about "suffering a mental decline" definitely applies to me. I've just kind of been in a funk for the last week or two. There are several contributing factors to my funk, but the details aren't really important. Anyone who knows me will agree that I do not handle change very well. Sure, I like to change outfits, genres of music, earrings and nail polish. But when it comes to big changes, changes in my routine or lifestyle, I have a tendency to... freak the freak out.
My freak-outs have a history of being quite dramatic and I really wanted to avoid the hemorrhage-inducing hysterical crying. But bottling my emotions did not work. It turns out I don't hide my feelings very well. I have been focusing on any negativity I can find; nit-picking over pointless details, criticizing family and friends, and just being all-around pessimistic. It wasn't until a few days ago that I realized how much I was affecting myself and everyone around me. I don't buy the old adage, "misery loves company." When you're miserable, you are unapproachable, unattractive and un-fun. Who would want to make company with somebody like that? Not me. I "miss and long for the return of" positive thinking.
Therefore, I am now making a conscious effort to heed the advice of the Law of Attraction. I am going to send positivity out into the universe, in hopes that it will return to me. I don't want to be irritable and unapproachable. I don't want to seem unattractive. And I most definitely do not want to be un-fun. I have a lot of great things in my life, and it's time to appreciate my blessings.
So, here goes... a list of EIGHT of the most positive things in my life right now!
1) I am HEALTHY. No terminal illnesses, no physical disabilities and no substance addictions.
2) I recently acquired some FABULOUS new sunglasses :)
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** Sunglasses from Target ** |
3) I have a great J-O-B! Not only is it a lot of fun to be an elementary school Spanish teacher, but I feel so blessed to have a stable job in a time when they are so scarce.
4) CHEAP rent... my big sister has been generous enough let me live in the awesome house she just bought and charge me a very reasonable rent.
5) Super CUTE bedding, to go in my new room at my new house!
6) FANTASTIC friends... I have three very close friends that I can always count on for support, companionship and LOADS of laughter.
7) I also have a six-year BFF... It sounds a little creepy, but she is my favorite kid in the world. This chick knows how to push my buttons and melt my heart, all within about 3 minutes. :)
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** Did you just die a little? ** |
8) AMAZING family! We may not always get along (heck, I wouldn't even say that we usually get along), but I am definitely the quintessential "family girl." My family will always be the most important part of my life.
Alright, Universe. I'm ready. Send me the love.